i'm so gonna give up in everything, like seriously. i've been thinking about others' feelings but did they ever spare a thought for me? simple as that, NO! never right? so i guess, it's not really worth my time at all. that goes the same to my love life, which i feel like it's a single-sided love.

my story is divided into 3 parts with 3 different people.

i'm putting everything to an end with Farid. why should i be in love with him when i don't have the love for him? i'm sorry if i sounded rude in this context but i'm just stating the facts. he doesn't even listen to my rants. yes, i've known him since primary school. so what? what's the big deal? that doesn't mean that he knows me well. and that's the fact! i don't even know how this thing started. i just can't be in this relationship with him. it's just too difficult for me.

and this one, he's a very complicated yet irritating guy. he always get me into my nerve and i totally give up on him. he put high hopes on me and even lie to me. dengar-dengar baru lepas discharged and baru lepas operation, bole maen bola pe! that really doesn't make sense at all. at least, if you wanna lie to me about something, make sure it's worth lying about la. don't have to create such stupid story and make this stupid girl believe to your story. haiz!

last guy, dearest sotongboy.
i don't know what his feeling. and i don't know if he really loves me sincerely. like seriously! if you happened to read this, i'm sorry. i'm just stating my feelings here! and at times, i feel like crying or maybe kill myself. i feel that the feelings that you have for me is fading away. but, i dont mind dearest! :( but this i hold true, iloveyou! thats all. you're just the one that makes me happy! and i thanked you for that. :'((