Stepping into another stage of your life is kinda tough especially when you're stepping into a world full of love. I've stepped into it and unfortunately, i fall so many times. Fall till i can't get up on my feet and I dont even see myself. Eventually, i gave up and asked myself, why am i still here fixing the broken heart alone? Each time when someone reached out their hands to me, i kept thinking twice. Am i going to fall into another trap or are they the ones for me? For the past few relationship i had, i fall for their traps. I tripped and fall, it almost killed me inside. I tried moving on and i learnt not to dwell about the past. Yes, i moved on. My past was scandalous. Its the worst nightmare ever.

Now, i fall into another trap and im glad that i fall into this trap because he's always there for me. I love him not because he's matured, goodlooking or whatever you can find in a guy. I love him because of his sincerity. His sincerity and honesty trying to know me is pure. But sometimes, it really breaks my wall when someone's trying to break us apart. We drifted, we argued, we cried and we dont even talked to each other couple of times. I never give up, i told myself to stay strong throughout this relationship. I failed. I broke down most of the time. I broke down not because i was weak, its because i love him too much that even small things can break my heart. I've never cried for someone so much or care about someone like how i cared abt him. I just want him to know that Im just too afraid to lose him to someone else.

If you happen to read this, im sorry dear. im just too insecure and im scared of losing u. whats more, being apart or drifted away. i love you too much, thats why im like this. im not being paranoid, im just stating the fact and let my feelings out here. A day without hearing from you feels like a month. From the bottom of my heart, there's no one like you. I can never love someone else like how i love you.

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Bring me into your dreams; 10:15 PM